normal?

i love the banal. I love regular things.

I stood watching my boiling bulgur imagining it wasn't boiling, but that it was actually hundreds of tiny sand crabs blowing bubbles under the surface of my bulgur. If i just dug a little, i could catch one! These thoughts fascinate me.

I love people. I am not very good with them, but i love to watch them. I love to think about them. For example, the cute old man who took 5 or 6 cookies and then some cake, when there were only 20 on the plate. This made me think, what was he like when he was younger? Did he always love sweets? Was he ever married? Did she like to bake for him? Maybe he just hasn't had lunch. Does he know how much cake he is spilling on the ground? I want to hand him a napkin.

another example. A sweet lady sits next to me with the loudest growling stomach i've heard in a while. She makes excuses for it, but passes up every treat offered her. She tells me about how she loves semi precious gems. She loves art; she loves Picasso. I wonder how many children she has. Where did she grow up? Was she rich or poor? Did she go to college? She must love her grandchildren. She would make a great bus driver, the real friendly lovely type.

the 80 something old man that takes his ailing wife in a wheel chair to the shoe store. Rolls her down every aisle, puts countless shoes on her, helps her stand on them, takes her to the mirror to see. Patiently shopping for her shoes. Does he miss her health? Was she a well pampered woman before her health failed? Did she love to shop with her girlfriends? Did he go out with the guys when they were young? Does he miss that? He loves her, that is evident. She is grateful, she sits patiently, almost sad, aware of the burden she puts on him. I tell her i like those ones.

under forty probably, he's been struggling for 7 years. He's found his happiness after years of depression. He was probably the life of the party. Trendy, fun, lively, probably got a lot of action. Now he's older. Does it feel like he's missed part of his prime? I hope he's really happy. Yoga and paralysis. Not an easy thing. I wonder if he's married? Does he have kids? Did he keep the same friends from before? His fashionable frames, funky haircut. He had to learn to walk again. He is slightly nervous when he struggles in his speech. Still he's the center. He's a new version.

I watched all day. everyday.