there are so many people i want to be closer friends with. just closer.
in some ways i wish i could be everyone's best friend. not in the way that "i'm everyone's best friend so i'm so awesome," or even the "i'm everyone's best friend so i'm important and needed" way, but in the "i'm everyone's best friend. So, when you see me you light up, and i can cheer you up and that every interaction we have is fantastic and meaningful and nothing is wasted" way.
So often i see someone i really like, maybe we're at a party or passing in the hall, and i want to have a moment that is more than "oh hi!" [ big hug ] "how are you?!!" and is more like "how are you baby?" and actually getting an honest "kinda crappy" or a facial expression that (because we are besties) i can read as "we'll talk later, i have so much to tell you". I want that with so many people. i've said it recently, i just want to feel so much, i want to feel for everyone i meet. I want to connect on a deeper level. i'm seeking that in the world, but i'm not always finding it in the right ways. i treasure the intimate conversations i have, and savor the moments of honesty with new friends. i yearn for more closeness, more cuddle times, more comfort in quiet together, more smiling and basking in the gloriousness that is friendship.
basically if i've met you, here's an invitation to be my best friend.**
**"best friends"--i love you dearly and uniquely
4 comments:
You make my day when I see you. You already do this, I'm sure to so many people already. Count me in! You're great.
hillary, don't be mad about this post.
I think you are more amazing and more of a friend to people than you think you are. I got so much love for you, girl.
I often feel the same way - nice to know this isn't an isolated experience :)
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