i think therefore, i blog

sometimes i just open this up and see what comes out of my head. what am i thinking right now? i don't know, so i'll blog. I am thinking about how today is a wonderfully beautiful day, my window is open, the sun is shining and i'm deep cleaning my bedroom and bathroom. I'll probably go running (at some point hopefully) i'll probably do some mending or embroidery. I don't know. We'll see. I might watch a show or something. Paid some bills, did some laundry. Made some lists. I should write letters. You're coming soon. I hope we have so much fun. There are things i'm afraid of and i can't tell what they are some days, i just feel uneasy. I wonder if i'll ever be in a family of my own. some days i'll just ache and ache to be someone's buddy. just let me live my life with you? please? someone? i'm desperate some days. some days, maybe today is one of those days, i feel independent and wonderful and dream of owning things and doing things my own way all the time. dear dear i am thinking a lot of things this morning...i guess it's afternoon now. what has happened to this day.