i don't know how to do it.

Dating is a curious thing to me. I really haven't done it yet. Yes i've had boyfriends, "relationships", etc, but those all occurred out of strange and unique circumstances. I'm not complaining, they make for better stories. The point is, I don't know how to do it. I thought I did, i should right? Recently it feels a lot like this:

This is a recreation of a doodle I did during church.

I'm trying to think better about men in general; give them the benefit of the doubt and so on. It's been a good exercise. But those times I can't read them, which is often, or when I can't tell what they're doing and why they're doing it. I just get confused and resort to being friends cause that's easy. I shouldn't do this i know. I don't want to seem harsh but, I guess after all this time and waiting I just want someone to make a move and break the stalemate, make it obvious for me men, or don't bother at all.