8.9.10

i've been playing a lot of solitaire

i find myself crying as i listen to pretty sad songs in the car.

i think about substantial and impressive things when i realize the tears on my cheek. I even think, i should express some of these feelings that i'm having, maybe in my blog.

but now i can't think of what it was that i realized was making me sad, or what it was that made me so so happy.

i know that i am both of those things. very very happy, and sad. maybe those times in the car are me expressing those feelings, without even having to put them on the internet.

3 comments:

Marge Bjork said...

beautiful.
love you.

Marge Bjork said...

in "the history of love" that i'm reading right now, by Nicole Krauss, the boy points out to the girl that she is special because each day she gets a little bit sadder and a little bit happier. On this day she is the happiest and the saddest she has ever been.

how true.

Janna said...

i remember that part. such a beautiful wonderful delightfully depressing and human book.