oriah mountain dreamer knows how it is

i was reading my motto, see Sept. 19th, and i really appreciate this line recently:

"i want to know if you can live with failure, yours and mine, and still stand on the edge of a lake and shout to the silver of the full moon, 'YES!'"

if you're close to me, or maybe even if we're not so close, you've perhaps heard me say lately that I've been identifying with the Cat Lady. You know that one that has a ton of cats and is older and lives alone (well not alone, but only with her cats). Seriously though, and i don't mean that in a negative way.

I've met and seen lately so many great women who are the "Cat Lady". They live alone, they're single, they have great careers, they are strong sisters in the church, they are just so amazing and interesting to sit and talk to.

i started thinking, "hey, i could do that. i am smart and interesting and love my career (crossing fingers), and could rock being single for a few decades." While expressing this to my father, he was like, "well that's great, but don't lose sight of those previous goals of getting married and having a family". Of course i haven't but i just really love those strong women, who are so happy even though they've missed out on those things. it gives me a strange hope.

i told someone, i can't remember who, maybe it was Meg, and she said that sort of person makes her sad and scared for her future. It doesn't scare me though. i like it.

so i want to know if you can live with failure, cause i can, failure at some goals, but not total failure. i may be romantically alone right now, but i am far from truly alone. i have friends, family, school, God, my wonderful ward and a glorious future. I am young and have everything ahead of me, everything and anything.

"i want to know if you can be alone with yourself, and if you truly like the company you keep in the empty moments"- Oriah Mountain Dreamer--Native American Elder